Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind.

by Ilovemjstill Sun Sep 06, 2009 3:12 pm

Hello Everyone this is thread is for you to come and relieve you stress
say what is ever on you mind. When you leave this thread you should
relaxed and recharged. PLEASE DO NOT BAG,TALK,MESS WITH ANY OTHER
USERS. Other then that Enjoy. Say what ever you want I do not Judge, and if you do have a problem with another user please do not say the user names.

by Rach Sun Sep 06, 2009 3:17 pm

Ok right now I am stressed because I need a cigarette and once again I don't have any Sad

I really do need to stop smoking because it's so not good for me and it takes all of money!!! Oh and I also feel very stuffed after eating the biggest Sunday roast in the whole world! I'm stuffed to the point where I feel uncomfortable Sad

by ballongiraf Sun Sep 06, 2009 3:22 pm

i have so many thoughts in my head, so much frustration (not hoax related, actually). LOL, im taking it out on another.part.of.me. Just sent her a 7 page long PM What a Face

by NikkiKat22 Sun Sep 06, 2009 3:28 pm

Right now I'm stressed because of my family. They keep making fun of me (especially my brother),they keep saying "Michael was guilty back in 2005, and Michael is dead now just drop it. I don't wanna hear anymore about him." Sad

God right now I hate my family. Sad

They may not like him, but they should respect my feelings. I'm sick of my family, the people at work, they keep telling awful MJ jokes about him being a child molester. Sad

I'm just tried of it all. I'm sick of life all together. Sad

by Guest Sun Sep 06, 2009 3:29 pm

Okey I didnt know where to post this. I hope this will chear you up a bit

Some very funny American idol auditions.

1st one lol Poor Paula This gujy is kinda creepy, but its still fun

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=omfx3pVuzDk&feature=related

2nd one

This guy need some help I think he has anger mannengment issues lol
I completely cracked up

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OpddXch_EzE

3rd one im lost or words lol

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pjdUnVRzZjw&feature=related

by Rach Sun Sep 06, 2009 3:31 pm

Awwww Nikki, that's so horrible *big hugs*

People who choose to believe Michael was guilty in 2005 are ignorant IMO. I don't mean any offence by this. Michael was acquitted in a court of law and there is NO way he would ever hurt a child. Look at how he opened up his private sanctuary, his home, to try and give them a better life.

Stay true to your heart and ignore the haters. They will never compare to what Michael is Smile

I love you xoxo

by Ilovemjstill Sun Sep 06, 2009 3:32 pm

charmed6 it is okay, we all know the truth.

by NikkiKat22 Sun Sep 06, 2009 3:40 pm

Rach wrote:Awwww Nikki, that's so horrible *big hugs*

People who choose to believe Michael was guilty in 2005 are ignorant IMO. I don't mean any offence by this. Michael was acquitted in a court of law and there is NO way he would ever hurt a child. Look at how he opened up his private sanctuary, his home, to try and give them a better life.

Stay true to your heart and ignore the haters. They will never compare to what Michael is

I love you xoxo

Aww Rach, I love you too, and no offense taken, My brother is an ass I know it. I ignore most haters, but trying to fight my family is hard. Sad

Sometimes I wish I could escape it all, But like I have stated before, I will take on the world to help Michael, even if it means losing my family in the process. Crying or Very sad

Its not my fault that there to blind to want to see the truth. Right? Crying or Very sad

by CharlieBarley Sun Sep 06, 2009 3:40 pm

To Charmed: Don't be upset or hate your family, they are just been a bit closed minded.

When people have said to me that MJ was a child molester I always say- he was never found guilty in the second case.

In the first case he did settle out of court as he was tired and I am sure he must have been mentally breaking down. But the most important bit was the parent's of the boy settled for the money out of court. Now I do not have children but if I did have children and my child had been molested there is no way on this earth I would settle for any amount of money, I would want to see him go to jail. So that is enough reason to prove he was innocent.

by CharlieBarley Sun Sep 06, 2009 3:42 pm

p.s charmed, sometimes family like to play you up, I know mine do all the time as I can be easy to wind up. But you just have to laugh it off and say What ever! They soon get bored.

by Rach Sun Sep 06, 2009 3:43 pm

charmed6 wrote:Aww Rach, I love you too, and no offense taken, My brother is an ass I know it. I ignore most haters, but trying to fight my family is hard. Sometimes I wish I could escape it all, But like I have stated before, I will take on the world to help Michael, even if it means losing my family in the process. Its not my fault that there to blind to want to see the truth. Right?

Some people will only ever see what they want to and there is no changing that so we shouldn't even try. You know what they say, you can't choose your family!

We know the truth and that's all that matters.

by MJFoReVeRandAlways Sun Sep 06, 2009 3:47 pm

charmed6 wrote:Right now I'm stressed because of my family. They keep making fun of me (especially my brother),they keep saying "Michael was guilty back in 2005, and Michael is dead now just drop it. I don't wanna hear anymore about him." God right now I hate my family. They may not like him, but they should respect my feelings. I'm sick of my family, the people at work, they keep telling awful MJ jokes about him being a child molester. I'm just tried of it all. I'm sick of life all together.

Recognize the making fun of me part. My family are all like, are you still not fed up with him? But I don´t really care. I´m the head chief of my mind, heart and soul and sometimes family don´t know it all.

by NikkiKat22 Sun Sep 06, 2009 3:52 pm

I didn't mean for you guys to be worried about me. I'm not that important. We all have problems we have to work through,not just me. I didn't mean to sound like I'm rubbing my problems off on any you guys. Sorry if I did though. Sad

by Ilovemjstill Sun Sep 06, 2009 3:56 pm

We are just letting it all out. AND you are important to us you are family.

by Rach Sun Sep 06, 2009 3:56 pm

Ok you ARE important. Everyone on here is so please don't think otherwise.

I know it's stressful when your family members don't believe what you're saying and don't seem to want to listen. My Mum does that all the time! I just accept that she has a different belief to me and that's fine.

Oh BTW Hon, I can't see your signature picture?!

by Guest Sun Sep 06, 2009 3:58 pm

@Charmed6

OH Honey, what in the world makes you think that you are not importent??
Dont ever think like that, because you are, never let anybody tell you diffrent, Okey, I want you to promise me that.

We are all here for 2 purposes, Michael, and support eachother, and we will support you, if you need it in any way.

Listen to me now. You are a wonderful girl, with a heart of Gold, and you have been so supportive to me, along with everyone else on this site, and you know what, thats what makes you importent to me. The fact that you care for others, like you do. Thats a rare thing. You are amazing, and beautiful, and It kills me, that you dont think that yourself.

If it makes you feel any better, I want you to know, that you are very importent to me in my life, you have helped me through some pretty painful days, by posting sweet and carring words to me.

If you cant see that, then you dont see, what I can see.

by NikkiKat22 Sun Sep 06, 2009 4:14 pm

Thank you all so much, from the bottom of my heart. your my family now, you guys don't know what you mean to me.. I love you all.

@MBMJ I'm sending you a pm

@Rachel, I don't know why you can't see my pic. I see it just fine. I'll see whats going on.

by YveLoVesMJ Sun Sep 06, 2009 4:23 pm

charmed6 wrote:Right now I'm stressed because of my family. They keep making fun of me (especially my brother),they keep saying "Michael was guilty back in 2005, and Michael is dead now just drop it. I don't wanna hear anymore about him." God right now I hate my family. They may not like him, but they should respect my feelings. I'm sick of my family, the people at work, they keep telling awful MJ jokes about him being a child molester. I'm just tried of it all. I'm sick of life all together.

Make them watch these videos "Michael Jackson THE LOST DOCUMENTARY"... if they still can't see the truth after watching them I don't know what more you can do... and please don't forget that we love you and that when things are hard all you have to do is come here and we will cheer you up and support you *hugs*

by EarthAngel90 Sun Sep 06, 2009 4:45 pm

Well - I am looking for a job (No luck whatsoever - Call Me Michael - Good Friend /Assistant Material *no joke* !) - My mother came & woke me up saying "Your Michael Obessesion needs to limited down a bit - we all like to believe Michael is alive & well - but he is gone" -(That made me infurated & angry when she said that but kept a calm demeanor)- (I don't smoke - no kids - I do drink but only drink when I am feeling for one - *Rarely*) ... and My Father calls me crazy & I don't see him anymore - we live the same house .... only people who believe me is My Little Sister & You Guys & My Good Mature Friend I have left *other friends were tired of me being me - Ironic , huh?* ... I thank god I have you guys ... I would be in the nuthouse right now.

by Guest Sun Sep 06, 2009 4:51 pm

GAVIN ARVISO. You, your mother and your siblings GO TO HELL. I dont give a damn about Gavins age, he was old enough to stand up for himself and go against his mother.

Michael saved Gavins life, its because of Michael he beat the cancer, and then they go and do this to him. What the hell is wrong with some people?
I didnt watch this video, (Ive watched it before, and I cryed my heart out) cause I know what the truth is, I know Michael never did anything that would harm a child in anyway. All he ever did was to save these lost children.

How can people be so cruel? How could they do this to him? And the FU...NG police, they drove Michael away from his home. They destroyed his beloved Neverland, and it kills me to even think of it. Michael was so devasteded, and I belive him to still be about that. It was NO drugs that "killed" Michael, it was the alligations, and the media. In my opinion, I think Michael finally reached his limit, and like that wasent enough, this Thome guy, seemed to control every aspect of Michaels life. The only way Michael could get out of that was to "die" and thats excatly what he did. When you look at all of this, then who would blame Michael for "hoax" his own death?

It breaks my heart, just thinking of him mabye beeing all alone, missing his beautiful children. Ohhh, I hope there is alot of people with him, helping him through all of this, so that he can come back, rested and ready to take on the world.

My love for Michael never dies.

by NikkiKat22 Sun Sep 06, 2009 5:02 pm

I feel a lot better now, Thank you to everyone who helped me through. I love you all. I hope yo know that.

by Ilovemjstill Sun Sep 06, 2009 5:34 pm

We love you to hun if I could see you right now I would give you a BIG hug. So I will send you this virtual Hug instead. cheers

My arms are open

by hungry Sun Sep 06, 2009 6:29 pm

YveLoVesMJ wrote:
charmed6 wrote:Right now I'm stressed because of my family. They keep making fun of me (especially my brother),they keep saying "Michael was guilty back in 2005, and Michael is dead now just drop it. I don't wanna hear anymore about him." God right now I hate my family. They may not like him, but they should respect my feelings. I'm sick of my family, the people at work, they keep telling awful MJ jokes about him being a child molester. I'm just tried of it all. I'm sick of life all together.

Make them watch these videos "Michael Jackson THE LOST DOCUMENTARY"... if they still can't see the truth after watching them I don't know what more you can do... and please don't forget that we love you and that when things are hard all you have to do is come here and we will cheer you up and support you *hugs*

I watched it. What a beautiful documentary Smile

by yaya Sun Sep 06, 2009 8:27 pm

i've had a crappy day and have been feeling down on and off lately. i think i put so much into cheering other people up that it drains me out a bit, then i feel empty when i'm the one who needs cheering up. i feel unappreciated sometimes.

by Rach Sun Sep 06, 2009 8:29 pm

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HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

I wish I could actually do that right now but I can't so this will have to do!!!

by Ilovemjstill Sun Sep 06, 2009 8:34 pm

Rach, What will have to do? Did I miss something.

by Rach Sun Sep 06, 2009 8:35 pm

Stressful night on the forum Hon! People are leaving left and right because of the way they are been spoken to and I have had enough of it.

by nlb Sun Sep 06, 2009 8:44 pm

charmed6 wrote:I didn't mean for you guys to be worried about me. I'm not that important. We all have problems we have to work through,not just me. I didn't mean to sound like I'm rubbing my problems off on any you guys. Sorry if I did though.

Sweetie- Please don't say your not important cause that just isn't true. You are very important to all of us here. You have no idea how manytimes you have made me smile and laugh when I was feeling down.

If you ever need to to blow off steam or just talk just pm me and I'll try and help you out best I can. Michael related or not. Smile

by Banessa Sun Sep 06, 2009 9:13 pm

nlb wrote:
charmed6 wrote:I didn't mean for you guys to be worried about me. I'm not that important. We all have problems we have to work through,not just me. I didn't mean to sound like I'm rubbing my problems off on any you guys. Sorry if I did though.

Sweetie- Please don't say your not important cause that just isn't true. You are very important to all of us here. You have no idea how manytimes you have made me smile and laugh when I was feeling down.

If you ever need to to blow off steam or just talk just pm me and I'll try and help you out best I can. Michael related or not.

First of all Nikki OMG!!! How can you think you are not important? Second I agree with every single word nlb wrote! You are an amazing person and like nlb said you have made me smile and LMAO so many times! I want you to know that I am here for you just like you have been for me! Some times we may not realize it but just by the things we post we may be helping someone else feel better even if it is indirectly! That's what you have done for me several times Smile

So thank you! I love you

Please feel free to send me a PM anytime Very Happy

Love ya! and you are a very important person in our forum family! I love you

by NikkiKat22 Sun Sep 06, 2009 9:20 pm

Banessa wrote:
nlb wrote:
charmed6 wrote:I didn't mean for you guys to be worried about me. I'm not that important. We all have problems we have to work through,not just me. I didn't mean to sound like I'm rubbing my problems off on any you guys. Sorry if I did though.

Sweetie- Please don't say your not important cause that just isn't true. You are very important to all of us here. You have no idea how manytimes you have made me smile and laugh when I was feeling down.

If you ever need to to blow off steam or just talk just pm me and I'll try and help you out best I can. Michael related or not.

First of all Nikki OMG!!! How can you think you are not important? Second I agree with every single word nlb wrote! You are an amazing person and like nlb said you have made me smile and LMAO so many times! I want you to know that I am here for you just like you have been for me! Some times we may not realize it but just by the things we post we may be helping someone else feel better even if it is indirectly! That's what you have done for me several times

So thank you! Please feel free to send me a PM anytime Love ya! and you are a very important person in our forum family!

Thank you guys so much. You guys mean the world to me, I hope you know that. I'm feeling better since I posted that, so please don't worry about me. I'm doing better. Right now I'm more worried about Human_Nature then myself. She is who matters right now not me. I hope she is o.k.?

by Rach Tue Sep 08, 2009 10:19 am

Ok I really need to vent because I have just had a HUGE argument with my Mum. We are so alike and sometimes that's not a good thing!

I need to put my head into a pillow and scream right now!!!!!

by emanviam Tue Sep 08, 2009 10:36 am

Rach wrote:Awwww Nikki, that's so horrible *big hugs*

People who choose to believe Michael was guilty in 2005 are ignorant IMO. I don't mean any offence by this. Michael was acquitted in a court of law and there is NO way he would ever hurt a child. Look at how he opened up his private sanctuary, his home, to try and give them a better life.

Stay true to your heart and ignore the haters. They will never compare to what Michael is

I love you xoxo

Ditto.

by NikkiKat22 Tue Sep 08, 2009 7:13 pm

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HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. Icon_mad

I'm don't know weather to be pissed off or cry my eyes out right now. Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. Icon_sad

by Sweet1 Tue Sep 08, 2009 7:59 pm

I am fed up and sick and tired of people thinking that whatever they say is the golden truth. If it is not the truth they will find a way to find something else to make it true. There is no such thing as always being right. Also, I am fed up with the media feeding lies and then some people fall for it. Make up your own mind. Thanks for giving me the avenue to vent. Keep the Faith!

by NikkiKat22 Tue Sep 08, 2009 8:10 pm

I AM SO FUCKING MAD RIGHT NOW! I FEEL BETRAYED BY SOMEONE I TRUSTED WITH EVERYTHING! HOW COULD THEY DO THIS TO ME? THEY KNOW I'M HURTING, THEY KNOW I'M IN AGONIZING PAIN EVERYDAY, YET THEY THROW THIS IN MY FACE! HOW COULD THEY DO THIS!!! Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. Icon_mad

ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!

by EarthAngel90 Tue Sep 08, 2009 8:35 pm

Well I would like to vent something - sorry if I say anything offense in anyway - 3 things ....

1. IF YOU THINK I AM CRAZY FOR BELIEVING IN SOMETHING , FINE IT IS YOUR OPINION & I HAVE NOTHING WRONG WITH IT - DON'T HATE ON ME FOR BELIEVEING IN IT!

2. I NEVER FALLEN SO HARD FOR A MAN IN MY LIFE - EVERYDAY SINCE JUNE - I FALL FOR THIS MAN - I AM DEAD SERIOUS - I CAN'T GET HIM OUT OF MY HEAD !!! OTHER MEN DON'T HIT ANYMORE ... I AM M.J. ADDICT & I LOVE IT....(Michael give me a chance ... Don't care about age period - I am dead serious - I want real love - I sick of being hurt & the guys don't see the real me - if you do - you get a real woman!)

3.ANYONE who make fun of Michael or says a Bad Joke about him - I will kick your ass & make you remember it well ..... !!!!

I feel much better - thank god for this part of the forum !!!!!

by NikkiKat22 Tue Sep 08, 2009 8:51 pm

I'm hurt so bad right now. Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. Icon_sad

I don't think I can stay on this site. I love you all. But something has just come to my attention that cause me a lot of pain. I can't do this anymore. I'm sorry! Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. Icon_sad

by Sweet1 Tue Sep 08, 2009 9:03 pm

Charmed6,
I am so sorry that you are hurting. Please don't leave sweetie. Sleep on it and perhaps you will feel better in the morning. Tomorrow is always a new day. I will uplift you prayer sweetie. Keep the Faith!

by nlb Tue Sep 08, 2009 9:10 pm

charmed6 wrote:I'm hurt so bad right now. I don't think I can stay on this site. I love you all. But something has just come to my attention that cause me a lot of pain. I can't do this anymore. I'm sorry!

Awww sweetie, I am so sorry you are hurting right now. I wish Icould do someting to make you feel better. Don't be sorry , do what you think is best for you, but I wish you would reconsider and stay. We love you and will miss you terribly if you go. Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. Herz

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by I.Run.Away Tue Sep 08, 2009 9:20 pm

Hey everyone, I would like to do some venting.

Everything in my life seems to be wrong. I lost my job a few months ago and I am not able to find another. The unemployment rate in Georgia is almost 11%. Now I am going back to school to get another degree.

I just live in la la land these days because I am unable to find anything to occupy my time. I usually come on here but don't sign in. It is a rather pathetic life to be living.

And on top of that, whenever I go to sleep I have at least one dream about Michael. This happens every day and I don't know what to do about it. Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. Icon_cry

by hungry Tue Sep 08, 2009 9:27 pm

I know I'm pretty young, but I have these weird feelings for Michael ever since this all happened. It's just infatuation (since I don't really know him in real life) but it's so annoying - thinking about him all the time... I wish I could stop, haha. I don't want to marry him or have a romantic relationship, even if he WAS in love with me, I just want to be his friend because he's so kind.
I guess this is all wishful thinking. Darn.

by NikkiKat22 Wed Sep 09, 2009 2:09 pm

I think I'm about to do one of the stupidest things I could ever do. No ,I can't message her,I need to calm down before I message or I will have have the police on my ass for threatening. Wow, whats a girl to do?

P.S Sorry this probably didn't make sense, I'm just thinking out loud about weather I should or shouldn't do something? Sorry I think I have myself confused now. Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. Icon_scratch

by Rach Wed Sep 09, 2009 2:21 pm

Ok I am mentally and physically exhausted and think I need a break from the site. Things are becoming WAY to much for me at the moment and I need to take a step back!

Thanks for allowing me to vent guys. You're amazing Smile

by Savannah Wed Sep 09, 2009 2:53 pm

Rach wrote:Ok I am mentally and physically exhausted and think I need a break from the site. Things are becoming WAY to much for me at the moment and I need to take a step back!

Thanks for allowing me to vent guys. You're amazing

"There, there sweet Rachel...it will be ok sweetie."

Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. Cats_Funny_Pictures-Cat_Chick_2

Rachel...even though we would miss you SO MUCH, your sanity and health is WAY more important than this site. You take as much time as you need, and we will be here waiting for you if you decide to take a break. If there is anything I can do for you, please let me know. Or if you just need to talk, I am here for that also. I love ya girl!!!

by nlb Wed Sep 09, 2009 2:55 pm

Rach wrote:Ok I am mentally and physically exhausted and think I need a break from the site. Things are becoming WAY to much for me at the moment and I need to take a step back!

Thanks for allowing me to vent guys. You're amazing

Rach you need to take care of you before anything else. You do an incredible job here keeping the site friendly and troll free, but your well being is way more important. If you feel you need to get away, then that's what you should do, you will be missed, but we understand. Loves ya

by Rach Wed Sep 09, 2009 2:59 pm

Thank you guys - you're little stars!

I am sure that tomorrow I will be fine and hooked as usual! I had a great day out with my best friend today and it was so good to get away from the computer and have some "me" time and I was surprised at how little I missed the forum. Maybe my obsession is subsiding?!

by Savannah Wed Sep 09, 2009 3:02 pm

charmed6 wrote:I think I'm about to do one of the stupidest things I could ever do. No ,I can't message her,I need to calm down before I message or I will have have the police on my ass for threatening. Wow, whats a girl to do?

P.S Sorry this probably didn't make sense, I'm just thinking out loud about weather I should or shouldn't do something? Sorry I think I have myself confused now.

Charmed ~ I hope you feel better. I knew something happened with you last night but wasn't sure exactly what. I hope you are feeling better, though. I can't help you about what to do...but if you are upset right now, my advice to you would be to wait a little bit and re-analyze how you feel. Sometimes just taking a walk will make you feel better. If not, well there is always "eenie meenie minie moe, catch a tiger by its toe"...or there is also the coin toss. (Just teasin ya girl). Keep your chin up, and I am SO glad you didn't leave us. (((hugs))) I love you

by White_Orchid Wed Sep 09, 2009 5:29 pm

Thank you, Rach!

My stress will be gone when we solve the puzzles!

I will work my fingers to the bone to that end!

Thanks also, I loved everyone's videos and good words, made me feel better.

MJ's Good Karma to everyone!

by NikkiKat22 Wed Sep 09, 2009 5:46 pm

Savannah wrote:
charmed6 wrote:I think I'm about to do one of the stupidest things I could ever do. No ,I can't message her,I need to calm down before I message or I will have have the police on my ass for threatening. Wow, whats a girl to do?

P.S Sorry this probably didn't make sense, I'm just thinking out loud about weather I should or shouldn't do something? Sorry I think I have myself confused now.

Charmed ~ I hope you feel better. I knew something happened with you last night but wasn't sure exactly what. I hope you are feeling better, though. I can't help you about what to do...but if you are upset right now, my advice to you would be to wait a little bit and re-analyze how you feel. Sometimes just taking a walk will make you feel better. If not, well there is always "eenie meenie minie moe, catch a tiger by its toe"...or there is also the coin toss. (Just teasin ya girl). Keep your chin up, and I am SO glad you didn't leave us. (((hugs)))

Thank you. Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. Herz

***Hugs back to you!!*** Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. Herz

Umm, I think I'll go with eenie, meenie, minie, moe! That always works. LOL. I don't think I'll send this person a message just yet, unless they really get me angry again..

by marsheliamorgan Wed Sep 09, 2009 7:08 pm

ok,here goes everything: i guess i would and will give u background info on my so-called life,i have been married for over 20 years to an alcholic,and no he's not physically abusive,however,he is one of these type people who doesnt stop to think about mental abuse,or emotional abuse,i have 2 grown children my daughter just got married saturday aug.29th,so yes,i was HIGHLY emotional being it was michaels b-day and on top of that the only friend i had was now taking my grandson and starting a new life which i know is what they are suppose to do,however i have had my grandson with me since like the day he was conceived,and i am SO LONELY i cant stand myself,i work at a hell hole of a crappy,unfullfilling job,and now i cant stop thinking of michael and the hell he must have endured and had to live with the lonliness,even in a room full of people you can still feel lonely.i know i live it EVERY single day.and to know on top of everything else what a kind hearted,pure loving heart he has always had and all the misery that must have come from that.thats why awhile back i loved the thought someone posted about someday we will all meet our michaels,but,truth be known, i am old,worn-out,and just tired.i feel like the best part of my life i gave up for this so called man who has the compassion of an alligator and the roar of a lion,i am so depressed and sad and utterly and miserably alone,my life is more than half over and there is nothing more or better for me,i know this,why didnt i take a chance and try to see my dreams thru when i was young and innocent young enough to make mistakes and be silly?Instead i was the responsible one,the overseer

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