How long will you hang on for?

by DawneVee Fri Aug 14, 2009 11:53 am

How long will you continue to believe MJ is indeed still alive?

I will wait till the Vienna tribute and the movie release, and probably till June 25, 2010 and if he hasn't made his reappearance with us all then I will just have to assume he:
a). is dead
b). did indeed fake his death to live a normal life

The good thing is, even though I am still addicted to this site and have made some wonderful friendships here, I have moved on and am living my life without losing sleep, without crying, without not eating.

Life has to go on and our time is very precious on this Earth. None of us are promised tomorrow. We only have today. So I am going to use each day and live it fully. That doesn't mean I am just up and forgetting about MJ because I am not.

If we ever do get an answer and we do find out he is indeed dead, boy oh boy will I mourn alright...probably for weeks. Or if we find out he is alive, well of course that the happy ending to the story.

Just thought I would put my thoughts out there today.

Blessings go out to all my MJ peeps here! I love you

by Rach Fri Aug 14, 2009 11:59 am

@ DawneVee - What a lovely post! I am glad you are getting on with the important things in life. Life is too short not too. I think I will heed your advice!

I think I will give it 2 years max and then maybe start to accept Michael is gone or doesn't want to be found. That doesn't mean for the next 2 years I am going to spend all of my time on here. I think after "This Is It" I will slowly stop coming on here as often and maybe think about things in my own head and pan out my own theories.

I know I will stay in touch with you guys for a REALLY long time and that's all thanks to Michael and I'm so grateful to him for that Smile

by jpresley Fri Aug 14, 2009 12:02 pm

DawneVee wrote:How long will you continue to believe MJ is indeed still alive?

I will wait till the Vienna tribute and the movie release, and probably till June 25, 2010 and if he hasn't made his reappearance with us all then I will just have to assume he:
a). is dead
b). did indeed fake his death to live a normal life

The good thing is, even though I am still addicted to this site and have made some wonderful friendships here, I have moved on and am living my life without losing sleep, without crying, without not eating.

Life has to go on and our time is very precious on this Earth. None of us are promised tomorrow. We only have today. So I am going to use each day and live it fully. That doesn't mean I am just up and forgetting about MJ because I am not.

If we ever do get an answer and we do find out he is indeed dead, boy oh boy will I mourn alright...probably for weeks. Or if we find out he is alive, well of course that the happy ending to the story.

Just thought I would put my thoughts out there today.

Blessings go out to all my MJ peeps here!

I'm glad you're moving on and are doing good!

I'm here until the bitter (or awesome) end. Perhaps longer. Some of the members have expressed a desire to remain in contact after....whatever the outcome is. I feel like we've got a little family community going on here and I'd hate to lose that.

I'm still living my life, but it's not back to normal by a long shot. I don't see that happening for a while because I simply have no desire to move on yet. I think that we were all brought here for a purpose (what that purpose it I don't know) and while I am sad, I also thoroughly enjoy the repartee between all of us.

by jpresley Fri Aug 14, 2009 12:03 pm

Rachel wrote:@ DawneVee - What a lovely post! I am glad you are getting on with the important things in life. Life is too short not too. I think I will heed your advice!

I think I will give it 2 years max and then maybe start to accept Michael is gone or doesn't want to be found. That doesn't mean for the next 2 years I am going to spend all of my time on here. I think after "This Is It" I will slowly stop coming on here as often and maybe think about things in my own head and pan out my own theories.

I know I will stay in touch with you guys for a REALLY long time and that's all thanks to Michael and I'm so grateful to him for that

Yeah, I second that. Two years would be a long time to still be right where we are now.

by EarthAngel90 Fri Aug 14, 2009 12:08 pm

I am moving on with my life - but I will still wait until he returns - When I say " Love him like Family" - I am stick with it with all my heart and soul .... I will be here with all love I still have for him.

Nothing is going to change that - Love You Michael always and forever - DO get better - I am very serious on that *if you are seeing this*.

*I am Still Sticking on Here as Long as I have to ... nothing is stop me - but The good lord himself.*

by Another.Part.Of.Me Fri Aug 14, 2009 12:22 pm

I'm glad that people are moving on with their lives.
Being on this forum has helped me do the same because before I discovered here I was a wreck, breaking down all the time and pretty much unable to think or function. It was like I was going through the motions until I started researching myself way before I discovered MJHD, lurked there for a while and then finally becoming a member of that forum and eventually this one.
This forum has played a dual role for me - on the one hand it has helped me get my thoughts out and try to find answers, on the other hand it has been a brilliant coping mechanism and for that I am profoundly grateful.

I am no longer breaking down into uncontrollable sobs and crying, I am going out, I am travelling and doing what I normally do.
Life has not stopped, it has carried on and I am carryong on along with it. I am not going to set myself a time limit. I want to wait it out until the bitter end come what may, because I don't think I can allow myself to turn away and turn my back on it.
If 'This Is It' comes out, it hasn't solved anything or answered any questions. The questions will still be there.
I can't turn off and just let it go because something inside me compels me to stay on and carry on the investigation. It's not something I could let go just like that.
As time goes by more information is coming out and I intend to carry on searching for my own peace of mind. I have my down days and my up days which is normal, and hopefully if this forum is still around then I'll still be posting.

If Michael does turn out to be alive and this is all a giant hoax, and I had given up because I'd set myself a cut-off date, I don't think I could forgive myself because it would be a huge betrayal. I fully respect and understand that others will eventually, at some point or other decide that enough is enough, and I hope we can still stay in contact because I really like what we have here. It's a bond and a camaraderie that is rare in most forums.

by Guest Fri Aug 14, 2009 12:26 pm

I dont know.

Forever if I have to.

I am nowhere near to accept the fact that he might be "dead" im not sure I ever will though. Sad

Mabye someday ill have to learn how to live with it, as heartbroken as I will be when that time comes. But accept it. Thats never going to happen.

I cant, im not ready to let him go. Im affraid of loosing him completely if I do that Sad

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I need closure in my heart, and I will not have that until I know for sure what has happent to Michael.

Right now for me, there is more evidence to him beeing alive, than dead.

I just wish, that I would stop feeling so sick everyday soon. My body has a very hard time coaping with it.
I hope it will be better with the time.

My love for Michael will NEVER change. He will always live on in my heart.

by annieisnotokey Fri Aug 14, 2009 12:34 pm

For me, it depends on how the official story unfolds.

As long as it’s a circus out there (or if the case dies down and not much is reported anymore), in my heart he’s alive and I won’t lose hope. Granted, in a couple of years I won’t be checking hoax death forums daily, but I will forever hold a special place in my heart for him wishing he was alive and well and secretly congratulating him for finding a way out.

If the story becomes consistent & rational and there’s no doubt in my mind that he passed, I’ll let him go. What would sadden me the most is not the fact that he died, but the fact that such a talented artist, smart man & beautiful soul never really had the chance of a happy life. It feels like the biggest cosmic injustice.

In relation to this particular Forum & its members, I have to say I feel attached to all of you so I’d love to keep in touch, regardless the outcome.

by SmoothCriminal Fri Aug 14, 2009 12:42 pm

I dont wanna let him go but i have to move on sometime,the media are just gonna keep feeding us more lies, i dont think i can take much more BS from them, id give him 2 years max if nothin happens then he is either dead or dos'nt wanna be found,
I will find it very suspious if no one gets charged for his death,i hope to god the movie theory is true,
if he is dead i wish they would burry him already, i dont wanna think of him in a mortuary all alone Sad

by SeeingClues Fri Aug 14, 2009 12:47 pm

I know some are holding out for the movie but I think if he doesn't show for the Tribute (which will be broadcast live to a billion people), then the best opportunity has passed and I will accept that he has died.

I'm hearing people on the web say the movie will be depressing in light of the fact that he died, so I'm thinking the movie would be a greater success if he was alive and was promoting it as a way for the world to see how he turned his concert into a theatrical masterpiece.

by PinkLizard Fri Aug 14, 2009 12:55 pm

I pray that we do find out the truth but think that if he doesn't come back we may never know the truth. I think I will always believe that he is alive as there is just too much that doesn't make sense and I'm not sure if it ever will. The question we need to answer is how do we prepare ourselves for another 'Elvis' situation??

I have found so many lovely, supportive friends on here and really feel that we are a family. I am here if anyone needs to talk - I pop into chat a LOT so come and find me or pm me. Love and hugs to everyone xoxox

by IWSICS Fri Aug 14, 2009 1:27 pm

For as long as I need to. Smile

I'm not on here ALL the time, but I look every so often just to see what's going on! I'm not gonna set myself a minimum or maximum amount of time to believe ot not to believe- I think I will just make a spontanious decision when the time is right.. right now, it's looking pretty good for us! So I think we're all gonna be here for a while! And remember, they're watching! Razz

by phoenix Fri Aug 14, 2009 1:38 pm

hm i gonna give Michael 3 years and when he still not going to come back than i gonna accept that he prefers to be left alone...but i dont think i can go on with the idea of him being dead- maybe its pathetic but its true...you now today i was watching moonwalker and..i dont know exactly how to describe but all through this film MJ was hunted by all kind of different people and he went through different transformations to save the kids and himself and after all this adventures he simply went on stage- the place where he really belongs to....i truly believe that this is what the life for him is about: being an atist, surprizing people...of course he is a human and we are supposed to die one day but i cant imagine that Michael would die this way- there must be more than that for him.... that is what i believe because i cant let him go even if its egoistic- i just want to believe..

oh i know that topic does not belog to this thread but have you seen Michaels backside at the end of Moonwalker while he performs "Come together"??.... i love those black pants...lol

by Guest Fri Aug 14, 2009 1:43 pm

phoenix wrote:hm i gonna give Michael 3 years and when he still not going to come back than i gonna accept that he prefers to be left alone...but i dont think i can go on with the idea of him being dead- maybe its pathetic but its true...you now today i was watching moonwalker and..i dont know exactly how to describe but all through this film MJ was hunted by all kind of different people and he went through different transformations to save the kids and himself and after all this adventures he simply went on stage- the place where he really belongs to....i truly believe that this is what the life for him is about: being an atist, surprizing people...of course he is a human and we are supposed to die one day but i cant imagine that Michael would die this way- there must be more than that for him.... that is what i believe because i cant let him go even if its egoistic- i just want to believe..

oh i know that topic does not belog to this thread but have you seen Michaels backside at the end of Moonwalker while he performs "Come together"??.... i love those black pants...lol

Its not pathetic of you to feel that way.
Not at all.

You are right, he loves to suprice people.. I dont think he will be in hiding forever.

by Guest Fri Aug 14, 2009 1:43 pm

As I said before, and will say again- I am riding this thing out till the end. I could never come to terms with myself if I ended up quitting.

Don't know how long- but possibly however long it takes. I am not crying anymore or sad about it anymore. I do my daily things as needed and I go out. I do spend a lot of time on here, though. Simply because I love all you lovely ladies (and gents?), and I feel as if we have been all drawn together for some reason unknown to us at this moment.

by phoenix Fri Aug 14, 2009 1:55 pm

MyBelovedMJ wrote:
phoenix wrote:hm i gonna give Michael 3 years and when he still not going to come back than i gonna accept that he prefers to be left alone...but i dont think i can go on with the idea of him being dead- maybe its pathetic but its true...you now today i was watching moonwalker and..i dont know exactly how to describe but all through this film MJ was hunted by all kind of different people and he went through different transformations to save the kids and himself and after all this adventures he simply went on stage- the place where he really belongs to....i truly believe that this is what the life for him is about: being an atist, surprizing people...of course he is a human and we are supposed to die one day but i cant imagine that Michael would die this way- there must be more than that for him.... that is what i believe because i cant let him go even if its egoistic- i just want to believe..

oh i know that topic does not belog to this thread but have you seen Michaels backside at the end of Moonwalker while he performs "Come together"??.... i love those black pants...lol

Its not pathetic of you to feel that way.
Not at all.

You are right, he loves to suprice people.. I dont think he will be in hiding forever.

thank you, dear sunny

by jpresley Fri Aug 14, 2009 2:05 pm

missdahmer wrote:As I said before, and will say again- I am riding this thing out till the end. I could never come to terms with myself if I ended up quitting.

Don't know how long- but possibly however long it takes. I am not crying anymore or sad about it anymore. I do my daily things as needed and I go out. I do spend a lot of time on here, though. Simply because I love all you lovely ladies (and gents?), and I feel as if we have been all drawn together for some reason unknown to us at this moment.

Don't forget...you love the chats too! Razz

by THE JACKSONOLOGIST Fri Aug 14, 2009 2:09 pm

Im ready to give it up right now actually. I cannot think. this morning I was an utter mess. APOM suggested a break. Today is Friday and I will be back Monday.

I think mybelovedMJ needs a break too....please dont be offended sweets ok? This whole thing is consuming you. Im worried.

by Another.Part.Of.Me Fri Aug 14, 2009 2:13 pm

THE JACKSONOLOGIST wrote:Im ready to give it up right now actually. I cannot think. this morning I was an utter mess. APOM suggested a break. Today is Friday and I will be back Monday.

I think mybelovedMJ needs a break too....please dont be offended sweets ok? This whole thing is consuming you. Im worried.

Just promise that you'll both take care of yourselves. None of us want to see anything happening to either you or MyBelovedMJ so remember that as much as we Love Michael and we undoubtably do, he wouldn't want us to make ourselves ill.
This 'quest' we have will still be here when you get back, we're not going anywhere for the time being. You're one of us (we really need a name btw)

Rest, take care of yourselves. Go to the park, the beach, a quiet place, meet up with friends for lunch/brunch, catch a movie, go shopping. Do something normal for a little while, I guarantee that you'll feel better for it.

by Guest Fri Aug 14, 2009 2:16 pm

jpresley wrote:
missdahmer wrote:As I said before, and will say again- I am riding this thing out till the end. I could never come to terms with myself if I ended up quitting.

Don't know how long- but possibly however long it takes. I am not crying anymore or sad about it anymore. I do my daily things as needed and I go out. I do spend a lot of time on here, though. Simply because I love all you lovely ladies (and gents?), and I feel as if we have been all drawn together for some reason unknown to us at this moment.

Don't forget...you love the chats too!

why yes, yes I do! Wink

by SmoothCriminal Fri Aug 14, 2009 2:18 pm

And as long as i have that doubt in my mind about him being dead i dont think i can l move on until its gone, i still have that strong feeling that hes alive and i can let go of that feeling, take your time michael im in no hurry Very Happy

by THE JACKSONOLOGIST Fri Aug 14, 2009 2:18 pm

I know. I think its that I want so much to believe hes alive but at the same time I cant help but know he's dead. Its one pushing againt the other...HARD. I think last night it just kinda caved in and got too much.

Im not sad or mad or anything. Im in a good mood and Im eating just fine. Its the stress of it all...the NOT KNOWING is whats killing me. and when something new pops up in the news or whatever, in this case the email, it keeps piling up and gets harder to deal.

Know whatta mean jellybean?

by SmoothCriminal Fri Aug 14, 2009 2:20 pm

missdahmer wrote:
jpresley wrote:
missdahmer wrote:As I said before, and will say again- I am riding this thing out till the end. I could never come to terms with myself if I ended up quitting.

Don't know how long- but possibly however long it takes. I am not crying anymore or sad about it anymore. I do my daily things as needed and I go out. I do spend a lot of time on here, though. Simply because I love all you lovely ladies (and gents?), and I feel as if we have been all drawn together for some reason unknown to us at this moment.

Don't forget...you love the chats too!

why yes, yes I do!

LMAO

by Sweet1 Fri Aug 14, 2009 2:20 pm

Well! I don't have a time limit. I celebrate MJ daily with his videos and music. I only cried the first couple of days. I thank God for that! I was led to pray for his safety and that is what I have been doing while celebrating him. The question is whether he will ever come back as MJ or walk about in diguise living his life in peace. That's something we may never know. The only thing I know is he's alive! Keep the Faith!

by Another.Part.Of.Me Fri Aug 14, 2009 2:25 pm

THE JACKSONOLOGIST wrote:I know. I think its that I want so much to believe hes alive but at the same time I cant help but know he's dead. Its one pushing againt the other...HARD. I think last night it just kinda caved in and got too much.

Im not sad or mad or anything. Im in a good mood and Im eating just fine. Its the stress of it all...the NOT KNOWING is whats killing me. and when something new pops up in the news or whatever, in this case the email, it keeps piling up and gets harder to deal.

Know whatta mean jellybean?

I know what you mean sweets. It's incredibly frustrating not knowing anything and not being given anything straight. We're being led on a string and it just keeps getting more and more tangled until we feel we're being choked and it's absolutely killing.

I think breaks are good once in a while, this site is so addictive with the huge numbers of posts flowing back and forth and yet more information to assimilate and more things to research and debunk. It's draining, and sometimes the pressure or not knowing really gets you down.

Take a break from the email!

Go and flirt with someone, or go on a date if you have someone special. I was shopping the other day, and I bought this awesome kickass pair of boots (similar to the 'Bad' cowboy boots but without all the buckles - only MJ can pull off those boots and make it look kickass awesome) Cool

and spent the time flirting with this hottie in the shop.

by Guest Fri Aug 14, 2009 2:30 pm

Another.Part.Of.Me wrote:
THE JACKSONOLOGIST wrote:Im ready to give it up right now actually. I cannot think. this morning I was an utter mess. APOM suggested a break. Today is Friday and I will be back Monday.

I think mybelovedMJ needs a break too....please dont be offended sweets ok? This whole thing is consuming you. Im worried.

Just promise that you'll both take care of yourselves. None of us want to see anything happening to either you or MyBelovedMJ so remember that as much as we Love Michael and we undoubtably do, he wouldn't want us to make ourselves ill.
This 'quest' we have will still be here when you get back, we're not going anywhere for the time being. You're one of us (we really need a name btw)

Rest, take care of yourselves. Go to the park, the beach, a quiet place, meet up with friends for lunch/brunch, catch a movie, go shopping. Do something normal for a little while, I guarantee that you'll feel better for it.

@ Another Part of me, and THE JACKSONLOGIST. You are both so very sweet. Im not takeing it wrong. Mabye I do need a break Sad

. I know Michael didnt want me to become ill, But I havent been able to control it till now. I dont know how long it will last though.

I think I will take a break, just for a few days. My Body is VERY affected by this, I feel like im about to faint sometimes during the day, Im not sleeping or eating well. Though I have been eating some crackers today, and I have been able to keep them down so far. I had never imagined that I would be so sick of grief, but i did.

By the way, my name is Charlie.

You should not be so worried about me. Think of you`re self and take care of you`re self, then you have been healing some of the world.

by Another.Part.Of.Me Fri Aug 14, 2009 2:37 pm

MyBelovedMJ wrote:
Another.Part.Of.Me wrote:
THE JACKSONOLOGIST wrote:Im ready to give it up right now actually. I cannot think. this morning I was an utter mess. APOM suggested a break. Today is Friday and I will be back Monday.

I think mybelovedMJ needs a break too....please dont be offended sweets ok? This whole thing is consuming you. Im worried.

Just promise that you'll both take care of yourselves. None of us want to see anything happening to either you or MyBelovedMJ so remember that as much as we Love Michael and we undoubtably do, he wouldn't want us to make ourselves ill.
This 'quest' we have will still be here when you get back, we're not going anywhere for the time being. You're one of us (we really need a name btw)

Rest, take care of yourselves. Go to the park, the beach, a quiet place, meet up with friends for lunch/brunch, catch a movie, go shopping. Do something normal for a little while, I guarantee that you'll feel better for it.

@ Another Part of me, and THE JACKSONLOGIST. You are both so very sweet. Im not takeing it wrong. Mabye I do need a break . I know Michael didnt want me to become ill, But I havent been able to control it till now. I dont know how long it will last though.

I think I will take a break, just for a few days. My Body is VERY affected by this, I feel like im about to faint sometimes during the day, Im not sleeping or eating well. Though I have been eating some crackers today, and I have been able to keep them down so far. I had never imagined that I would be so sick of grief, but i did.

By the way, my name is Charlie.

You should not be so worried about me. Think of you`re self and take care of you`re self, then you have been healing some of the world.

No worries Charlie (I'm Farah btw - pronounced like 'Farrah' Fawcett), take care of yourself.
Stay hydrated too, you've been sick a lot so make sure you replenish your fluids, drink plenty of water and OJ/vitamin C just to make sure you don't keel over or pass out. Take some vitamins too, this should hopefully combat some of the weakness and not endanger you too much.
Rest, relax, have a bubble bath, drink some warm milk and rest yourself

by Guest Fri Aug 14, 2009 2:41 pm

I'm going to be totally honest with you guys...I'm going to hang on forever if I have to. But I need to take better care of myself at the same time, I am SO SLEEP DEPRIVED its rediculous, I keep crying and I'm hardly eating or drinking and I haven't been looking well at all. I am so hurt and so stressed out right now...idk what to do. I know I NEED a break I just can't take one. Before I came on this site I was on mjhd and a zillion other sites ALL DAY AND NIGHT so it has been this way since june.

by Another.Part.Of.Me Fri Aug 14, 2009 2:47 pm

Peterpanswendy wrote:I'm going to be totally honest with you guys...I'm going to hang on forever if I have to. But I need to take better care of myself at the same time, I am SO SLEEP DEPRIVED its rediculous, I keep crying and I'm hardly eating or drinking and I haven't been looking well at all. I am so hurt and so stressed out right now...idk what to do. I know I NEED a break I just can't take one. Before I came on this site I was on mjhd and a zillion other sites ALL DAY AND NIGHT so it has been this way since june.

Hi Wendy, I hope you feel better soon.
Try doing what the others are doing, take a break and look after yourself. I remember the time I could barely move for grieving and I was constantly breaking down all the time. Focus is a great thing, and this site gives us something to focus on - but there is something else which we need to focus on and that is ourselves. We'll help no one let alone Michael by being ill ourselves and by not taking care of ourselves we will not only hurt our bodies, we will also hurt the people around us.
I notice that many here have families, partners etc. We need to remember that they love and care for us too and when we're not well, it hurts them.

Take care

by jpresley Fri Aug 14, 2009 2:50 pm

Peterpanswendy wrote:I'm going to be totally honest with you guys...I'm going to hang on forever if I have to. But I need to take better care of myself at the same time, I am SO SLEEP DEPRIVED its rediculous, I keep crying and I'm hardly eating or drinking and I haven't been looking well at all. I am so hurt and so stressed out right now...idk what to do. I know I NEED a break I just can't take one. Before I came on this site I was on mjhd and a zillion other sites ALL DAY AND NIGHT so it has been this way since june.

I am also totally addicted to this site and am on the internet both day and night. I've actually got a bit of insomnia working right now because I can't seem to shut my mind off. I am eating and drinking tons of water though, so physically I'm doing okay. Except, I'm on an exercise hiatus. I just can't bring myself to work out right now. I am here until the end because I simply couldn't stand myself if I didn't. I don't remember who, but someone said earlier on the thread they would feel like they had betrayed MJ by quiting and I feel the same way. It seems he was let down by everyone in his life and I just want to do everything I can to not be another person who does that (whether or not HE knows isn't really the point, because I'll know it).

Mary and Charlie, please take care of yourselves this weekend. I plan on popping in and out both days, so if you need to talk or whatever just send me a PM. Smile

by Guest Fri Aug 14, 2009 3:01 pm

and the last thing I want to do is feel like I have betrayed mj after all the people that have done/are doing that to him. I love him with all my heart and I just can't let go. Because I do feel like he is alive and I'm just totally addicted. I woke up so pale this morning and it scared the shit out of me. so I'm trying to eat a little more but sleeping for a good amount of time is just impossible. I feel like shit emotionally and phyically.

I just can't turn my back.
I feel like we are so close to knowing the truth.

by jpresley Fri Aug 14, 2009 3:04 pm

Peterpanswendy wrote:and the last thing I want to do is feel like I have betrayed mj after all the people that have done/are doing that to him. I love him with all my heart and I just can't let go. Because I do feel like he is alive and I'm just totally addicted. I woke up so pale this morning and it scared the shit out of me. so I'm trying to eat a little more but sleeping for a good amount of time is just impossible. I feel like shit emotionally and phyically.

I just can't turn my back.
I feel like we are so close to knowing the truth.

I agree. I think we are on the cusp of something. I really do. Sleep is next to impossible for me as well. I'm fulfililng my obligations and such (though not getting a whole hell of a lot done at work these days, good thing I have a cool boss lol), but my heart and mind is always on MJ.

by Another.Part.Of.Me Fri Aug 14, 2009 3:14 pm

jpresley wrote:
Peterpanswendy wrote:and the last thing I want to do is feel like I have betrayed mj after all the people that have done/are doing that to him. I love him with all my heart and I just can't let go. Because I do feel like he is alive and I'm just totally addicted. I woke up so pale this morning and it scared the shit out of me. so I'm trying to eat a little more but sleeping for a good amount of time is just impossible. I feel like shit emotionally and phyically.

I just can't turn my back.
I feel like we are so close to knowing the truth.

I agree. I think we are on the cusp of something. I really do. Sleep is next to impossible for me as well. I'm fulfililng my obligations and such (though not getting a whole hell of a lot done at work these days, good thing I have a cool boss lol), but my heart and mind is always on MJ.

I could not agree more. I've had this feeling since Saturday and it's unshakeable. I am 100% unwavering about this - something is happening, it's like we're on a precipice and something momentous is happening, I just can't get rid of that feeling at all.
Michael and this whole mystery/situation has been preying on my mind constantly since June 25th.
I'm excited, I'm thrilled and I feel like I'm standing at a specific moment in time where something is going to happen and I want to be wide awake when it does.

I'd complain about insomnia but I've been an insomniac for years, it's funny because I love my bed but God knows I don't spend a lot of time there. I'm up all day and most nights until the early hours, but that's not Michael or the forum, that's just me being wired up wrong.
This forum is freaking addictive though but I love it, and I couldn't ask for a better group or people to share this with. It's a shame that I can't come on here at work otherwise I'd be on here 24/7.

Wendy - OMG you woke up pale? Girl you have to look after yourself. At least eat and drink some, and take vitamins to keep your strength up.

OMG I feel like Hulk Hogan going on about vitamins lol, but he's not wrong.

by Guest Fri Aug 14, 2009 3:39 pm

Peterpanswendy wrote:and the last thing I want to do is feel like I have betrayed mj after all the people that have done/are doing that to him. I love him with all my heart and I just can't let go. Because I do feel like he is alive and I'm just totally addicted. I woke up so pale this morning and it scared the shit out of me. so I'm trying to eat a little more but sleeping for a good amount of time is just impossible. I feel like shit emotionally and phyically.

I just can't turn my back.
I feel like we are so close to knowing the truth.

Honey. Please dont do this to yourself. I beg of you. Look how sick It has gotten me. You need to eat. Trust me I know how you are feeling. If it hadent been for some of the people in here, I would have been even more sick, that I already am. I dont wanna see you do this to yourself.

Michael knows you love him. No doubt about that. Dont feel like you are betraying him, because if there is something we DONT do in here thats it. We stand up for Michael, we would defend him anytime, to anyone.

Do you believe in Magic sweetie?? If you do, you believe in Michael aswell. Im sure he knows what he is doing.

I beg of you, get some sleep, and eat something.
I dont like hearing about you feeling this way, it breaks my heart.

You only need these 3 words to keep on fighting:

Hope
Faith
Love

by Savannah Fri Aug 14, 2009 3:46 pm

missdahmer wrote:As I said before, and will say again- I am riding this thing out till the end. I could never come to terms with myself if I ended up quitting.

Don't know how long- but possibly however long it takes. I am not crying anymore or sad about it anymore. I do my daily things as needed and I go out. I do spend a lot of time on here, though. Simply because I love all you lovely ladies (and gents?), and I feel as if we have been all drawn together for some reason unknown to us at this moment.

Missdahmer ~ I could not of said it better. In your post, you said everything I was thinking also. I too believe and feel that we have all been drawn together for some reasun unknown to us. I have always felt that way...almost like we all have a special bond/connection. It's strange because I have been on alot of chats and forums over the last few years (not to this extent), but I have NEVER felt like I do on here...and it's a good feeling! flower

by annieisnotokey Fri Aug 14, 2009 3:59 pm

jpresley wrote:
Peterpanswendy wrote:
I just can't turn my back.
I feel like we are so close to knowing the truth.

I agree. I think we are on the cusp of something. I really do.

I feel the same way. In fact, yesterday I couldn't bring myself to turn off my PC, because I was afraid I was gonna miss out on some breaking news (good ones). Very Happy

I totally have the feeling that something -I don't know what- is about to unveil very soon. Suspect

by Another.Part.Of.Me Fri Aug 14, 2009 4:01 pm

Savannah wrote:
missdahmer wrote:As I said before, and will say again- I am riding this thing out till the end. I could never come to terms with myself if I ended up quitting.

Don't know how long- but possibly however long it takes. I am not crying anymore or sad about it anymore. I do my daily things as needed and I go out. I do spend a lot of time on here, though. Simply because I love all you lovely ladies (and gents?), and I feel as if we have been all drawn together for some reason unknown to us at this moment.

Missdahmer ~ I could not of said it better. In your post, you said everything I was thinking also. I too believe and feel that we have all been drawn together for some reasun unknown to us. I have always felt that way...almost like we all have a special bond/connection. It's strange because I have been on alot of chats and forums over the last few years (not to this extent), but I have NEVER felt like I do on here...and it's a good feeling!

It's a GREAT feeling. I don't know what it is but it's peaceful here, it's exciting, it's amazing and it's us - all different people from different places and backgrounds - but somehow we're so in tune with each other it's amazing. It's like we share a brain, we're on the same wavelength in a way that I have never experienced with multiple people before.
I've been on forums before and almost always it's either gotten out of hand, or I've lost interest - but here, it's like being with family, people who know and understand you unconditionally.

by Guest Fri Aug 14, 2009 4:03 pm

@mybelovedmj

thanks so much for that, it kinda made me tear up (in a good way)
I just never wanna feel like I have turned my back on him.

by Guest Fri Aug 14, 2009 4:05 pm

Peterpanswendy wrote:@mybelovedmj

thanks so much for that, it kinda made me tear up (in a good way)
I just never wanna feel like I have turned my back on him.

Honey no matter what DONT YOU DARE TO EVER FEEL THAT WAY.
Michael know that he has us to count on, too be there for him, and support him.
He did what he had to do to keep himself safe.

He loves us as much as we love him.

by dunno_it Fri Aug 14, 2009 4:24 pm

I have a strange feeling the game has only just begun and the best is yet to come. And I expect huge shocking suprises...
And guys, remember MJ would want us to go on with our lives! Smile

by Lorrie Fri Aug 14, 2009 4:30 pm

Another.Part.Of.Me wrote:
jpresley wrote:
Peterpanswendy wrote:I just can't turn my back.
I feel like we are so close to knowing the truth.

I agree. I think we are on the cusp of something. I really do.

I could not agree more. I've had this feeling since Saturday and it's unshakeable. I am 100% unwavering about this - something is happening, it's like we're on a precipice and something momentous is happening, I just can't get rid of that feeling at all.
Michael and this whole mystery/situation has been preying on my mind constantly since June 25th.

Count me in for all of the above.

If it weren't for my absolute certainty that Michael isn't dead, I'd hold out until (1) a legitimate photo of his dead body surfaced or (2) the official and officially signed autopsy report is released by the coroner himself.

I didn't pay much attention to Michael's "death" when it was first announced, aside from the initial shock over the suddenness. It didn't truly hit me until days after the funeral and memorial when, out of the blue, I had this inescapable urge to listen to "Off the Wall." One thing led to another and it's been all Michael, almost all the time ever since.

I can't even remember how or why I began to feel that something wasn't right with his "passing," but I ran across MJHD while digging up info on him, and that pretty much sealed the deal for me.

Like some of you, I've moved on quite a bit and am no longer preoccupied with Michael every waking hour. But I can't shake the feeling that he's not dead and will resurface soon, so I'm going to hold onto that feeling for as long as it sticks around.

Oddly enough, the belief just keeps getting stronger and stronger the longer this situation drags on, so that's a good sign to me, too.

by Another.Part.Of.Me Fri Aug 14, 2009 4:42 pm

Peterpanswendy wrote:@mybelovedmj

thanks so much for that, it kinda made me tear up (in a good way)
I just never wanna feel like I have turned my back on him.

Oh God, don't feel like that. You most definitely are not turning your back on him - you just have to remember to take care of yourself first!!!!
Remember, if you aren't healthy and you let yourself waste away with grief then you'll end up hurting yourself badly.
Take care of yourself, Michael loves his fans, he would never want them to hurt themselves - Michael is all about life and living.
We need to honour him by doing what he did and continued to do throughout his life and that is live - life is Michael's legacy, his message is 'live'. On stage he is the most alive person in the world.
The real world is our stage, it is where we have to live and perform in our everyday lives and we should take inspiration from Michael. He is a pillar of strength, he is life, he is strong and he never gave up. We should do the same.

Please look after yourself Wendy.

by NikkiKat22 Fri Aug 14, 2009 6:59 pm

Peterpanswendy wrote:I'm going to be totally honest with you guys...I'm going to hang on forever if I have to. But I need to take better care of myself at the same time, I am SO SLEEP DEPRIVED its rediculous, I keep crying and I'm hardly eating or drinking and I haven't been looking well at all. I am so hurt and so stressed out right now...idk what to do. I know I NEED a break I just can't take one. Before I came on this site I was on mjhd and a zillion other sites ALL DAY AND NIGHT so it has been this way since june.

I know just how you feel. Last night I did something And I regret doing it. I was running on no sleep for almost 24 hrs. I haven't been eating good. I have completely detached myself from my family and friends. I try to take a day away from this site... but then I'm afraid something big will happen and I don't want to miss it.I was not thinking straight. and I took some sleeping medication. I regretted it as soon as i did it. I just feel awful I did it. I just don't wanna give up.

by Banessa Fri Aug 14, 2009 7:19 pm

missdahmer wrote:As I said before, and will say again- I am riding this thing out till the end. I could never come to terms with myself if I ended up quitting.

Don't know how long- but possibly however long it takes. I am not crying anymore or sad about it anymore. I do my daily things as needed and I go out. I do spend a lot of time on here, though. Simply because I love all you lovely ladies (and gents?), and I feel as if we have been all drawn together for some reason unknown to us at this moment.

I will hang for as long as I can! Some days I feel as if I won't be able to do this for much longer but then when I read the posts and I see the evidence that everyone contributes plus all the weird and crazy inconsistencies don't add up to Michael being "dead". I get a big boost of Hope and I want to keep going 'till the end! I think is very important to take care of ourselves and still live our lives as normal as we can, I think Michael would wanted that way! I'm no longer sad either I'm just hopeful and look forward to each day and the many possibilities it will bring us! Don't know why but I have had a feeling that we won't have to wait much longer and that soon everything will be revealed. To all of you... stay strong and positive I think is just like Michael always says "The best is yet to come" Very Happy

by DawneVee Fri Aug 14, 2009 7:22 pm

Getting a good night's sleep is necessary for your body to function dear ones. It doesn't make you a bad MJ supporter if you sleep for 8 hours.
You need your rest (and a good meal or 2) in order to get through the day. Don't deprive yourselves of that.
By making yourselves sick, how is that going to help bring MJ back? It won't. You are only harming yourselves and those around you. Sad

I am only saying this with a heart full of love and compassion for you guys because we have all been through the wringer and still have a long ways to go yet.

Hugs to all of you!

by Guest Fri Aug 14, 2009 7:36 pm

@Peterpanswendy

Sweetheart, im only gonna say this because I care.

Please dont get as sick as Ive become, its a nightmare trust me on this.
You gotta eat, and take some vitamins, anything.

Im struggeling very badly, to control this, and I have been able to, today, because of all the support Ive gotten from this site, and the people on here.

Its very importent, that we keep ourselves healthy, and well, that is what Michael wants for us.
It would break his heart if he knew this (dont get me wrong, im not blameing you) all im saying is that, in order to heal the world, I believe that we have to heal oursleves first.

Michael did what he had to do, to keep himself safe, im sure it broke his heart, but to be honest, I dont think he had any other choice Sad

right now.

Look at all the clues we have gotten, It gotta mean something.

Promise me that you will take care of yourself. I will do the same thing.

I will see if I can get some sleep my body is exhausted, im really tired.

HugZ

by Rach Fri Aug 14, 2009 7:41 pm

Great advice everyone!

My body is so tired all the time and I feel myself sleeping at the most ridiculous times. I mean take now for example. It's 2.39am and I am not going to sleep anytime soon because I slept for most of the evening!

However I had a lovely day today with my best friend and my god son and just getting out of the house and I was surprised I didn't miss the computer as much as I thought I would! I think going out for a walk and seeing all the beauty in the world helps a lot and of course I always have you guys to cheer me up Smile

by Guest Fri Aug 14, 2009 8:25 pm

Yeah I went for a walk with my mom and brother and it was great I wasn't stressing over my computer as much as I thought I would. It helped a lot. But talking to you guys does help A LOT as well.

by Savannah Fri Aug 14, 2009 9:47 pm

LOL about leaving your computer. I know EXACTLY how you guys feel. I had to take my daughters out to the mall for school clothes shopping today, and I felt a sense of dread and panic walking out of my house. My kids were laughing at me and said "your laptop will be here when we get home, mom". (haha) We did have a very nice time at the mall, but I couldn't wait to get home to see if I missed anything. My computer couldn't load up fast enough. My husband and I are taking my kids to an amusement park Monday and Tuesday...I do not know HOW I am going to do it. Hmmmm...I wonder if my laptop will fit in my purse??? (heehee)
lol!

by NikkiKat22 Fri Aug 14, 2009 10:00 pm

Savannah wrote:LOL about leaving your computer. I know EXACTLY how you guys feel. I had to take my daughters out to the mall for school clothes shopping today, and I felt a sense of dread and panic walking out of my house. My kids were laughing at me and said "your laptop will be here when we get home, mom". (haha) We did have a very nice time at the mall, but I couldn't wait to get home to see if I missed anything. My computer couldn't load up fast enough. My husband and I are taking my kids to an amusement park Monday and Tuesday...I do not know HOW I am going to do it. Hmmmm...I wonder if my laptop will fit in my purse??? (heehee)

Haha... well I dont' know about you.... but I have internet access on my phone...and it's programmed to this site. Wink

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