I Just Don't know Anymore

Awww Honey, I'm so sorry that you're feeling low

We all have times like that believe me. I have lost track of how many emotions I have gone through since June 25th.

I was having a hard times last week after some personal stuff and had an internet break and it really helped me. I would suggest perhaps taking a bit time off the forums and spending time with family and friends. It does help!

Plus we are all here if you ever need a pick me up. I always find that reading back over the inconsistencies helps me when I am starting to fall.

Sending you big hugs xoxo

Just like what Rach said, we're here and we all understand what you're going through KIDDNERD.

Guess what? I've posted more of my literary works, may be that will relax you. I do hope I could help you ease that weight you're feeling.

We have all been there and have our bad days, those days are when you begin to question if MJ is alive but the more you gather information and delve into it all the more you believe. Think of it like I did when I felt really low- I thought with all the evidence and clues the chances of him being ALIVE are much greater than him being dead. One or two clues-ok you can understand as normal in a death but clues and inconsistancies have been dropping like concrete bricks.
Maybe have a few days from the site as it does get quite obsessive and makes your head spin trying to take it all in. have some YOU time, pamper yourself and you will have a clearer fresher mind and a better outlook. Take care and keep the faith!

When I heard about his "death" I had dreams with him. I cried so much. But one night I was sleeping and dreaming and I wake up with a diferent though : " but, if he is alive"
So I satarted to research and I saw so many coincidences that I figured that he could be alive.
So I am here. Full of hope, no more tears, no more depressed, just researching.
So, just look at the facts and you will see the coincidences and that his "death" can´t be true.
keep hope inside your heart. L.O.V.E.

wow I am glad I am not the only one who had dreams.

neverlandprincess wrote:wow I am glad I am not the only one who had dreams.

Yeah me too.

There's still one that keeps bothering me 'cause I can't remember all of it; just bits and pieces. In it, I see Michael sitting at a desk with papers scattered about. I get the feeling that something is bothering him. He's sitting there with his head in his hands. I walk over and stand beside him. I put my hand on his shoulder to let him know I'm here for him and he turns to look up at me (OMGosh, I can't get the look in his eyes out of my mind). "What am I going to do? I'm so tired of this", he whispers. I lean down to give him a hug. "You need'nt worry. I'm sure they'll understand", I assure him. He starts to tell me something else but then...ahh...I want to remember...why can't I remember?

Many times I can remember just about every detail of my dreams...
Just thinking about the look he gave me makes my eyes tear up I guess maybe that's why it bothers me so much. Ahhh, this one has me frustrated in that I can't remember it all...oh well...idk (sorry for making anyone feel sad) I think this one may have been dreamt on an "off" day Hopefully, it'll come back.

@TKN I agree with the others in that a little break will do you some good. We've all had those "off" days and I don't think there's enough bottles in the world to hold all the tears we've cried. So take care of yourself, I'm sure we'll still be here when you get back