Re: Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind.

by hungry Wed Sep 09, 2009 7:19 pm

marsheliamorgan wrote:ok,here goes everything: i guess i would and will give u background info on my so-called life,i have been married for over 20 years to an alcholic,and no he's not physically abusive,however,he is one of these type people who doesnt stop to think about mental abuse,or emotional abuse,i have 2 grown children my daughter just got married saturday aug.29th,so yes,i was HIGHLY emotional being it was michaels b-day and on top of that the only friend i had was now taking my grandson and starting a new life which i know is what they are suppose to do,however i have had my grandson with me since like the day he was conceived,and i am SO LONELY i cant stand myself,i work at a hell hole of a crappy,unfullfilling job,and now i cant stop thinking of michael and the hell he must have endured and had to live with the lonliness,even in a room full of people you can still feel lonely.i know i live it EVERY single day.and to know on top of everything else what a kind hearted,pure loving heart he has always had and all the misery that must have come from that.thats why awhile back i loved the thought someone posted about someday we will all meet our michaels,but,truth be known, i am old,worn-out,and just tired.i feel like the best part of my life i gave up for this so called man who has the compassion of an alligator and the roar of a lion,i am so depressed and sad and utterly and miserably alone,my life is more than half over and there is nothing more or better for me,i know this,why didnt i take a chance and try to see my dreams thru when i was young and innocent young enough to make mistakes and be silly?Instead i was the responsible one,the overseer

I was the one who said, "We'll all find our own Michaels one day, don't worry". I'm really glad you liked my post Smile

Thank you so much! I know what you mean, even though I have yet to give birth or even get married. Life seems so... slow and un-glamorous. It's not like I expect my life to be as eventful as Michael's but I want it to be more... fun.
However - you are not alone. I know this is sooo cliche (they're lyrics, for god's sake!) but I feel the need to tell you this:
You are not alone, we're all here with you (everyone at this forum. we stick together through thick and thin, always. michael is even here, through his music, so listen to his songs).
you are beyond blessed to have found a love so strong to last you through so much with him. Love is about embracing and admiring someone's good qualities and their company, but it's also about learning to love their faults. I guess it's easier said than done, because I've never had a good relationship.
Just know that we're always here for you. Although you can't see us, doesn't mean we're not there Smile

by Guest Wed Sep 09, 2009 7:19 pm

marsheliamorgan wrote:ok,here goes everything: i guess i would and will give u background info on my so-called life,i have been married for over 20 years to an alcholic,and no he's not physically abusive,however,he is one of these type people who doesnt stop to think about mental abuse,or emotional abuse,i have 2 grown children my daughter just got married saturday aug.29th,so yes,i was HIGHLY emotional being it was michaels b-day and on top of that the only friend i had was now taking my grandson and starting a new life which i know is what they are suppose to do,however i have had my grandson with me since like the day he was conceived,and i am SO LONELY i cant stand myself,i work at a hell hole of a crappy,unfullfilling job,and now i cant stop thinking of michael and the hell he must have endured and had to live with the lonliness,even in a room full of people you can still feel lonely.i know i live it EVERY single day.and to know on top of everything else what a kind hearted,pure loving heart he has always had and all the misery that must have come from that.thats why awhile back i loved the thought someone posted about someday we will all meet our michaels,but,truth be known, i am old,worn-out,and just tired.i feel like the best part of my life i gave up for this so called man who has the compassion of an alligator and the roar of a lion,i am so depressed and sad and utterly and miserably alone,my life is more than half over and there is nothing more or better for me,i know this,why didnt i take a chance and try to see my dreams thru when i was young and innocent young enough to make mistakes and be silly?Instead i was the responsible one,the overseer

This broke my heart to read Sad

, I cant stand the thought of you beeing in this kind of pain. Listen to me know, you are NEVER to old to live out your dreams, and do not ever let anyone tell to diffrent. It sounds to me like you have spend you`re entire life thinking of others? When do you start to think about yourself? What do you want? I know how you feel when you are saying that you think about Mike all day long, so do I, but I am so sure that he is alive, that I can feel him.. He has been through alot of pain, and I think he finally reached his limit, he needed to get away. He did what he had to do, to make it right for himself. You need to do the same thing. Start thinking of yourself make yourselve happy. Live out your dreams.
Take a look at yourself and make a change...

I hope this didnt come out the wrong way, cause that was not my intend

by NikkiKat22 Wed Sep 09, 2009 7:21 pm

marsheliamorgan wrote:ok,here goes everything: i guess i would and will give u background info on my so-called life,i have been married for over 20 years to an alcholic,and no he's not physically abusive,however,he is one of these type people who doesnt stop to think about mental abuse,or emotional abuse,i have 2 grown children my daughter just got married saturday aug.29th,so yes,i was HIGHLY emotional being it was michaels b-day and on top of that the only friend i had was now taking my grandson and starting a new life which i know is what they are suppose to do,however i have had my grandson with me since like the day he was conceived,and i am SO LONELY i cant stand myself,i work at a hell hole of a crappy,unfullfilling job,and now i cant stop thinking of michael and the hell he must have endured and had to live with the lonliness,even in a room full of people you can still feel lonely.i know i live it EVERY single day.and to know on top of everything else what a kind hearted,pure loving heart he has always had and all the misery that must have come from that.thats why awhile back i loved the thought someone posted about someday we will all meet our michaels,but,truth be known, i am old,worn-out,and just tired.i feel like the best part of my life i gave up for this so called man who has the compassion of an alligator and the roar of a lion,i am so depressed and sad and utterly and miserably alone,my life is more than half over and there is nothing more or better for me,i know this,why didnt i take a chance and try to see my dreams thru when i was young and innocent young enough to make mistakes and be silly?Instead i was the responsible one,the overseer

I want you to know. With me here, your never alone. Don't forget that I love you!!! ***Big Hugs to you***

Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. - Page 2 Poems

by Sweet1 Wed Sep 09, 2009 9:02 pm

marsheliamorgan wrote:ok,here goes everything: i guess i would and will give u background info on my so-called life,i have been married for over 20 years to an alcholic,and no he's not physically abusive,however,he is one of these type people who doesnt stop to think about mental abuse,or emotional abuse,i have 2 grown children my daughter just got married saturday aug.29th,so yes,i was HIGHLY emotional being it was michaels b-day and on top of that the only friend i had was now taking my grandson and starting a new life which i know is what they are suppose to do,however i have had my grandson with me since like the day he was conceived,and i am SO LONELY i cant stand myself,i work at a hell hole of a crappy,unfullfilling job,and now i cant stop thinking of michael and the hell he must have endured and had to live with the lonliness,even in a room full of people you can still feel lonely.i know i live it EVERY single day.and to know on top of everything else what a kind hearted,pure loving heart he has always had and all the misery that must have come from that.thats why awhile back i loved the thought someone posted about someday we will all meet our michaels,but,truth be known, i am old,worn-out,and just tired.i feel like the best part of my life i gave up for this so called man who has the compassion of an alligator and the roar of a lion,i am so depressed and sad and utterly and miserably alone,my life is more than half over and there is nothing more or better for me,i know this,why didnt i take a chance and try to see my dreams thru when i was young and innocent young enough to make mistakes and be silly?Instead i was the responsible one,the overseer

Honey,
I can imagine what you must be feeling. I was once married to an alcoholic myself. Just be thankful yours isn't physically abusive. Mine, was physchology and physically abusive. I thank God that is my past. I can tell you from experience while you're still in the relationship you need to focus on you for a change. If you work in a crappy office with people tune them out. If you work at a desk with a computer. Bring some soothing, relaxing music that will uplift your spirit throughout the day. On Saturday go out for pampering. Get a manicure/pedicure. Go to a hair stylist and get your hair done. Find a book to read to escape. J. Randy Taraborrelli's The Magic, The Madness, The Whole Story Michael Jackson from 1958-2009 is great reading. I bought it the last month from Wal-Mart for $13.95. It's over 600+ pages. You'll enjoy it. One last thing if nothing else be thankful for your health and strength. It's a great thing to be in the land of the living. Oh and lastly I don't know how spiritual you are and I hope I am not offending you but I read my word everyday and that helps me alot too. I hope that you feel better. Remember! tomorrow is a brighter day. Weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning. Keep the Faith!

by marsheliamorgan Thu Sep 10, 2009 3:48 am

thank you all,i dont mean to say that i am not thankful for what i do have as i know there are many many people far worse off than me,i am just miserable.i guess that is why i dont know what to dream for or about anymore,you know when you dont follow or try or strive for your dreams its like you and they shrivel up and disappear.i guess that is why i am so praying that michael is still alive and this is all a great big hoax i cant imagine someone as good as he was no longer on this earth,i mean,it just makes the world that much ouglier doesnt it?dont mean to sound all sorry for myself as i have made the choices in life and if i would have felt like i had outs and options when i was younger i should have taken or taken steps to correct,i guess sometimes we just dont see things when we should,we dont see them or realize until its too late to make the needed corrections in our lives.again thanks to all of u and your kind words,i am going to try and put a smile on my face and just continue to put on foot in front of the other and see what happens.much love and hugs to all of you.i just love this forum and all the great minds on here.you ladies are absolutley the BEST,ever one of you,i hope today is the day i come home from work,pop on here,and see some more GREAT clues and solutions,you ladies are the bomb!! i mean that. you should all open a dectective agency, THEY CANT GET ANYTHING BY YOU,we could call it, MICHAELS'S angels, LOL

by White_Orchid Thu Sep 10, 2009 4:11 pm

Happy thoughts and good karma!

by Guest Thu Sep 10, 2009 4:23 pm

marsheliamorgan wrote:thank you all,i dont mean to say that i am not thankful for what i do have as i know there are many many people far worse off than me,i am just miserable.i guess that is why i dont know what to dream for or about anymore,you know when you dont follow or try or strive for your dreams its like you and they shrivel up and disappear.i guess that is why i am so praying that michael is still alive and this is all a great big hoax i cant imagine someone as good as he was no longer on this earth,i mean,it just makes the world that much ouglier doesnt it?dont mean to sound all sorry for myself as i have made the choices in life and if i would have felt like i had outs and options when i was younger i should have taken or taken steps to correct,i guess sometimes we just dont see things when we should,we dont see them or realize until its too late to make the needed corrections in our lives.again thanks to all of u and your kind words,i am going to try and put a smile on my face and just continue to put on foot in front of the other and see what happens.much love and hugs to all of you.i just love this forum and all the great minds on here.you ladies are absolutley the BEST,ever one of you,i hope today is the day i come home from work,pop on here,and see some more GREAT clues and solutions,you ladies are the bomb!! i mean that. you should all open a dectective agency, THEY CANT GET ANYTHING BY YOU,we could call it, MICHAELS'S angels, LOL

Sweetie, please stop appoligising for everything you say, I beg of you. Your dreams will come back to you, trust me on that one.
Michael IS not dead remember that. Do what you have to do, to make it right for yourself
I know he is alive, cause Angels cannot die.

And yes, I know he is human, trust me. But he is also the closest thing to an Angel that ever lived.

by NikkiKat22 Thu Sep 10, 2009 7:23 pm

Okay, so I need to just say what on my mind. It has nothing to do with the site. I was told horrible devastating news yesterday. Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. - Page 2 Icon_sad

I work at a daycare and I found out by a mom, that one of the children I watch, her daughter, has a terminal illness. There is no cure. Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. - Page 2 Icon_sad

I just can't believe it. This beautiful little girl is going to be taken away from us. How can GOD do this? Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. - Page 2 Icon_sad

She is only 2 years old. I have watched her since she was an infant. I know this is horrible to say, but if MJ is really gone, I hope he will take care of her, so she is not alone. That thought terrifies me. She so young I don't want her to be alone. I want her here with us. Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. - Page 2 Icon_sad

by Guest Thu Sep 10, 2009 7:26 pm

charmed6 wrote:Okay, so I need to just say what on my mind. It has nothing to do with the site. I was told horrible devastating news yesterday. I work at a daycare and I found out by a mom, that one of the children I watch, her daughter, has a terminal illness. There is no cure. I just can't believe it. This beautiful little girl is going to be taken away from us. How can GOD do this? She is only 2 years old. I have watched her since she was an infant. I know this is horrible to say, but if MJ is really gone, I hope he will take care of her, so she is not alone. That thought terrifies me. She so young I don't want her to be alone. I want her here with us.

Honey, I dont know what to say other than, if he is really gone, trust me, he will take of her and protect her. He will sing her a lolliby every night,. He will watch her like an Angel. You can count on that

by marsheliamorgan Thu Sep 10, 2009 7:36 pm

so sorry to hear that charmed,this is one of those things that just dont make sense,i know if michael is gone,he will protect her,sing to her,and be there for her,and if he isnt there are many many angels that have to be there for her,she is a child and children are innocent of EVERYTHING,they havent been here long enough to foul up or hurt anyone,i am praying for you and this family,may god bless her and keep her and you i know this has to be so hard on you trying to keep a smile on your face,when you are so hurt,and worried,hugs to you,if there is anything i can do,dont hesitate to ask,

by NikkiKat22 Thu Sep 10, 2009 7:44 pm

Thank you both. Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. - Page 2 Icon_sad

All I ask is..please pray for her. Pray for a miracle to save her innocent life. Please pray. Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. - Page 2 Icon_sad

by hungry Thu Sep 10, 2009 7:53 pm

Smile, though your heart is aching.
Oh, charmed... God has his own reasons for things. His need for her must be much greater than ours.
I'll pray as hard as I can.

by NikkiKat22 Sat Sep 12, 2009 8:46 pm

I feel like this is the end. Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. - Page 2 Icon_sad

Is MJKIT over with. Nobody is ever here anymore. I don't want this to be over. You are the only ones who understand my feelings. I am lost without you. Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. - Page 2 Icon_sad

by mjssoulmate Sat Sep 12, 2009 9:02 pm

I will pray for this little girl. I understand what you are going through. Sometimes there seems to be no rhyme or reason. Be comforted in the thought that she will be in a better place, and our spirits never die.

by hungry Sat Sep 12, 2009 9:24 pm

charmed6 wrote:I feel like this is the end. Is MJKIT over with. Nobody is ever here anymore. I don't want this to be over. You are the only ones who understand my feelings. I am lost without you.

Ever since the burial, mjkit hasn't been the same. People lost hope and they left hoax forums. Maybe they're right, who knows?
When Rachel left, I was devastated. She was so helpful on the forum (well, she IS admin) and I'm going to miss her. I was happy to read in her goodbye post that she didn't lose hope though. She just doesn't want to be a part of the forum.

by LoveisMagical Sat Sep 12, 2009 9:28 pm

charmed6 wrote:I feel like this is the end. Is MJKIT over with. Nobody is ever here anymore. I don't want this to be over. You are the only ones who understand my feelings. I am lost without you.

Dont you worry we will be here as long as our hearts keep beliving...I keep the faith that Michael is alive and we are a family, we have gone thru so many things together, and I'll be here for whatever you need me. I just wish I could be here more but I have school.

Much Love & Good Bless You

by EarthAngel90 Sat Sep 12, 2009 9:34 pm

I am still on here - I haven't gave up yet & we shouldn't either .... we are here for a wonderful man with a heart bigger than the world itself - because we lost one member - doesn't meant we stop the show ... we continue the battle .... we are going to miss her very much but she would want us to continue .....So stop with the depressed attitudes & Get back in Motion - we are a Team & We are M.J.'s Internet Family - Let's Do It for HIM!!!! GO TEAM GO !!!! YAY! WOO!

by NikkiKat22 Sat Sep 12, 2009 9:43 pm

EarthAngel90 wrote:I am still on here - I haven't gave up yet & we shouldn't either .... we are here for a wonderful man with a heart bigger than the world itself - because we lost one member - doesn't meant we stop the show ... we continue the battle .... we are going to miss her very much but she would want us to continue .....So stop with the depressed attitudes & Get back in Motion - we are a Team & We are M.J.'s Internet Family - Let's Do It for HIM!!!! GO TEAM GO !!!! YAY! WOO!

LMAO, Okay, you talked me into it. I'm so easily persuaded. LOL. And can I just say. I'm in love with all of you sigg. pictures.

by hungry Sat Sep 12, 2009 9:46 pm

charmed6 wrote:
EarthAngel90 wrote:I am still on here - I haven't gave up yet & we shouldn't either .... we are here for a wonderful man with a heart bigger than the world itself - because we lost one member - doesn't meant we stop the show ... we continue the battle .... we are going to miss her very much but she would want us to continue .....So stop with the depressed attitudes & Get back in Motion - we are a Team & We are M.J.'s Internet Family - Let's Do It for HIM!!!! GO TEAM GO !!!! YAY! WOO!

LMAO, Okay, you talked me into it. I'm so easily persuaded. LOL. And can I just say. I'm in love with all of you sigg. pictures.

Saaaame! Pep talks always work on me Smile

by NikkiKat22 Sat Sep 12, 2009 9:48 pm

hungry wrote:
charmed6 wrote:
EarthAngel90 wrote:I am still on here - I haven't gave up yet & we shouldn't either .... we are here for a wonderful man with a heart bigger than the world itself - because we lost one member - doesn't meant we stop the show ... we continue the battle .... we are going to miss her very much but she would want us to continue .....So stop with the depressed attitudes & Get back in Motion - we are a Team & We are M.J.'s Internet Family - Let's Do It for HIM!!!! GO TEAM GO !!!! YAY! WOO!

LMAO, Okay, you talked me into it. I'm so easily persuaded. LOL. And can I just say. I'm in love with all of you sigg. pictures.
Saaaame! Pep talks always work on me

She is like our cheerleader. Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. - Page 2 Icon_biggrin

"GO TEAM GO" Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. - Page 2 Icon_cheers

by EarthAngel90 Sat Sep 12, 2009 9:57 pm

Now - Let's Cheer Up ... We are Here For M.J. - we are M.J.'s Special Cheerleaders !!!! Let Me Hear It - Yay ! Wooo! YEAH !!!!

by NikkiKat22 Sat Sep 12, 2009 10:09 pm

EarthAngel90 wrote:Now - Let's Cheer Up ... We are Here For M.J. - we are M.J.'s Special Cheerleaders !!!! Let Me Hear It - Yay ! Wooo! YEAH !!!!

YAY! WOOO! YEAH. Go Michael, Go Michael, GO GO, GO Michael. Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. - Page 2 Icon_cheers

I hope you herd me? Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. - Page 2 Icon_wink

by EarthAngel90 Sat Sep 12, 2009 11:25 pm

charmed6 wrote:
EarthAngel90 wrote:Now - Let's Cheer Up ... We are Here For M.J. - we are M.J.'s Special Cheerleaders !!!! Let Me Hear It - Yay ! Wooo! YEAH !!!!

YAY! WOOO! YEAH. Go Michael, Go Michael, GO GO, GO Michael. I hope you herd me?

Alright !!!! Other Ladies - I can't hear you ??!!!! Give a Shout !!!

by Stranger In Chi-town Wed Sep 16, 2009 10:19 pm

I'm stressed as ever. So many things I want to change about my life, it's not funny. I'm happy that MJ may be alive, but sad I have never met him before.
To be in the presence of such a person is humbling.
I think I might even be having a identity crisis. And I feel so alone outside of this site and the internet. Been having up and down days and some days I am happy or sad completely. Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. - Page 2 Icon_cry

by Stranger In Chi-town Wed Sep 16, 2009 10:47 pm

EarthAngel90 wrote:Now - Let's Cheer Up ... We are Here For M.J. - we are M.J.'s Special Cheerleaders !!!! Let Me Hear It - Yay ! Wooo! YEAH !!!!

I'm sorry. I posted my message before I saw yours, Earth Angel. And posts above mine with the cheers.

I have a question, ppl.
Since MJ may be alive, is it crazy for me to wish I could meet him? He's a hero to me. I can relate a lot to his story. What an honor it must be to be in this man's presence! Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. - Page 2 Icon_bounce

I believe in positive thinking; the thinking inspired by folks like Dr. Wayne Dyer and Louise Hay and when you use positive thinking you can change your reality, so does anyone think anything is possible? :-/

by LoveisMagical Thu Sep 17, 2009 11:52 am

This is pretty stressing...I got my first ticket ever Relieve Stress Relieve What is on your mind. - Page 2 Icon_eek

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